don’t judge

but

i have 100+ posts on my one direction tumblr queue

that equals two days worth of posts

i can take a break now

i’m usually not one to hug either. what is this.

It kind of makes me happy and giddy of how he wants to be accepted by my mom.
He’s even willing to come over again and teach me how to cook LOL. Hopefully that’ll win over my parents, since they’ve been wanting me to cook more often. Yes. Five-course meal for my parents… Let’s go!
I think I’m super comfortable around him already, and we’ve barely known each other for like… A month. Wow.

in the past, i’d always have a kind of texting buddy, you could say. like i’d text them every day, morning to night. and for some reason, it started off so carefree, but as time passed, the conversations began to become duller and boring. it’s always those early stages when you’re getting to know the person, and ask questions and just talk about their day, or even yours. i think during these times, i’d always begin to rely on the person for some sort of companionship and now that i think about it, it was such a waste of time. i could be doing other things instead of waiting around for that one text. i’ve realized that lately, i don’t text much whatsoever and i feel more free. i don’t need to rely on my phone and texting anymore. like there were stages when i’d text a certain guy. and each of these guys were fun to talk to in the beginning, but after awhile, you kind of get sick of them. it seemed like all the conversations grew into like a different form of the same conversation that had already happened, ya know? and oh my gosh, i remember the guy who would ALWAYS put smilies at the end of the texts, and i felt obligated to do that too eventually. but man, THAT WAS DUMB. like the conversation would be like:

him: “What’s up?(:”
me: “Just doing some homework. Blech. You?(:”

IFDJSAFKLJDSAKLFJSDAKLFJASDIO. I WAS SO DUMB. like seriously, what is the point of a smiley unless you’re trying to use it by justifying your joke or flirting. maybe i was flirting, but seriously.. in a lame way. lol, i kind of miss it actually. like i’d get annoyed after a day of it, but like an hour long conversation would keep me distracted for a little while.

so now, i’m a horrible replier. i look at a text that was probably sent two hours or more before i actually check my phone then i think, “oh, it’s too late to reply now. might as well stop the conversation here” and boom, end of conversation. first month i got texting, i used 30,000… and i don’t even know how that happened. it eventually went down to like 10,000 a month. now it’s probably like 3,000 or so. what a drastic change, huh? so yeah, my point is… huh. i don’t even know what i’m trying to say. basically, texting has lost its affect on me and it’s really not important to me anymore